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Huh!!!!
Huh!!!!
hahaha bukan kok @littlepigeon maksa bener ah. Eh lu naksir void ya?
Handphone dalam genggaman dari tadi.
Liat jam dinding.
Jam 9 malam.
Pantaskah aku menelepon dia?
Siapa gua?
"telepon gak ya?"
"Telepon...jangan...telepon...jangan..."
Aku pun semakin cepat berjalan mondar-mandir dalam kamarku.
"Gua ngomong apa di telepon nanti?"
"Ya udah, di sms aja."
"Trus gua sms ngapain?"
"Ya tanya kabar kek, gimana makan malamnya tadi kek, apa kek."
"Kok kesannya nossy bener ya?"
"eh kampret, udah dari tadi jalan mondar-mandir megang hp mulu, trus mo ngapain? remes hp?"
Aku pusing mendengarkan entah percakapan siapa dalam benakku. Akhirnya aku meletakkan handphone keatas meja dan berjalan ke kamar mandi.
Aku belum mandi.
bukan void kok, yg ini pindah ke eropa.
Mandi...
Sabunan...
Banjur-banjur air kebadan...
Pake shampo...
Banjur-banjur air lagi...
Sabunan...
Banjur-banjur air lagi...
Sikat gigi...
Lalu baru aku tersadar, kenapa diulang-ulang ya? Ternyata memikirkan kamu bisa bikin aku gak konsen mandi. Kuteruskan menyikat gigiku lalu menyiramkan air ketubuhku lalu aku pun meraih handukku.
Ingin rasanya aku segera berlari ke kamarku dan melihat handphone. Apakah ada pesan masuk? Apakah ada panggilan tak terjawab.
Aku pun mengeringkan tubuhku ala kadarnya lalu segera berjalan ke kamarku. Handphone masih tergeletak diatas meja. Tak ada panggilan, tak ada pesan.
Sunyi.
My heart ache.
It hurts knowing you will get hurt.
It hurts so bad that I feel suffocated.
Your smile was the last thing that I remember before I've fallen...asleep.
I was tossing and turning.
I was asleep but at the same time I was restless
do you know how I feel?
like crap...
7:30...
Not even the smell of the heavenly coffee and my mom's cooking can drag me out of the bed. Today is a dreadfull day. The day where you would face a farewell, a real farewell from your boyfriend. The day where you heart would be broken to pieces and I was so afraid how much it would hurt you that I felt sharp pang in my stomach.
I ran to the bathroom and I puked. I felt sick just from imagining how hurt you could be. I felt awfull. Hoping that warm water could ease the pain, I took a shower.
Standing in the middle of shower, I could feel that my eyes are getting warmer and warmer. Oh how much I hoped I could help you ease the pain. How much I wished I could take the pain away from you.
The warm water failed to do its magic. Instead I felt hopeless and sad.
I was sad...because you were sad.
terlalu sedih dikenangkan
setelah aku jauh berjalan
dan tak ku tinggalkan
betapa hatiku bersedih
mengenang kasih dan sayangmu
setulus pesanmu
kepadaku
engkau kan menunggu
andaikan kau
datang kembali...
jawaban apa yang
kan kuberi...
adakah jalan yang kau temui
untuk kita kembali lagi
bersinarlah bulan purnama
seindah serta tulus cintanya
bersinarlah terus sampai nanti
lagu ini kuakhiri
haruskah aku tetap berada dalam bayang-bayangmu?