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I hate being gay

iamthecurseofgodiamthecurseofgod
edited February 2009 in BoyzRoom
Why do I hate so much being Gay?

1. I couldn't find friends that accept me who I am. (most of gay friends I've met are a sort of maniac and they flirt with me so badly, no true friends).
2. I must conceal my feelings all the time.
3. I always fall in love with straight guys (being gay it means that I'm looking for men figure, not a fake manly figure just like all gay top have or an overly feminine traits just like gay bot have)
4. If I want to open up about my gayness, I will ruin my life, for me sex orientation is no need to be declared.
5. Many women want me, but so sad I couldn't make them special in my heart.
6. Life is a lot tougher when you're gay.
7. I can success in all thing because I'm gay (can combine male and female minds that led to a success) but in love, I'm a desperate person.
8. Every Religion rejects me.
9. I couldn't have my own child, even if i can adopt one, it's a disaster for the kid. They should get raise in a healthy environment.

Silahkan olok-olok saya dan silahkan juga mencari pemecahan masalah ini. Saya hanya curhat saja. Terima kasih!!
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  • RECTORYRECTORY
    The solution is VERY simple :
    Embrace who you REALLY are, and learn to enjoy being yourself. Learn to enjoy your life too otherwise it's no point of living if you don't enjoy it.
  • the@mindthe@mind
    iamthecurseofgod wrote:
    Why do I hate so much being Gay?

    1. I couldn't find friends that accept me who I am. (most of gay friends I've met are a sort of maniac and they flirt with me so badly, no true friends).
    2. I must conceal my feelings all the time.
    3. I always fall in love with straight guys (being gay it means that I'm looking for men figure, not a fake manly figure just like all gay top have or an overly feminine traits just like gay bot have)
    4. If I want to open up about my gayness, I will ruin my life, for me sex orientation is no need to be declared.
    5. Many women want me, but so sad I couldn't make them special in my heart.
    6. Life is a lot tougher when you're gay.
    7. I can success in all thing because I'm gay (can combine male and female minds that led to a success) but in love, I'm a desperate person.
    8. Every Religion rejects me.
    9. I couldn't have my own child, even if i can adopt one, it's a disaster for the kid. They should get raise in a healthy environment.

    Silahkan olok-olok saya dan silahkan juga mencari pemecahan masalah ini. Saya hanya curhat saja. Terima kasih!!

    wah, sudah punya banyak alasan untuk tidak menjadi GAY. Kalo gitu gampang, jangan jadi GAY kalo gitu.
  • iamthecurseofgodiamthecurseofgod
    the@mind wrote:
    iamthecurseofgod wrote:
    Why do I hate so much being Gay?

    1. I couldn't find friends that accept me who I am. (most of gay friends I've met are a sort of maniac and they flirt with me so badly, no true friends).
    2. I must conceal my feelings all the time.
    3. I always fall in love with straight guys (being gay it means that I'm looking for men figure, not a fake manly figure just like all gay top have or an overly feminine traits just like gay bot have)
    4. If I want to open up about my gayness, I will ruin my life, for me sex orientation is no need to be declared.
    5. Many women want me, but so sad I couldn't make them special in my heart.
    6. Life is a lot tougher when you're gay.
    7. I can success in all thing because I'm gay (can combine male and female minds that led to a success) but in love, I'm a desperate person.
    8. Every Religion rejects me.
    9. I couldn't have my own child, even if i can adopt one, it's a disaster for the kid. They should get raise in a healthy environment.

    Silahkan olok-olok saya dan silahkan juga mencari pemecahan masalah ini. Saya hanya curhat saja. Terima kasih!!

    wah, sudah punya banyak alasan untuk tidak menjadi GAY. Kalo gitu gampang, jangan jadi GAY kalo gitu.

    Yah, tidak semudah membalikkan telapak tangan
  • iamthecurseofgodiamthecurseofgod
    RECTORY wrote:
    The solution is VERY simple :
    Embrace who you REALLY are, and learn to enjoy being yourself. Learn to enjoy your life too otherwise it's no point of living if you don't enjoy it.

    yeah, I have tried to enjoy my life, but it seems that I am lacking of love that I deserve to get it.
  • AncientAncient
    Just pray and face it.
    Believing God, He always walks with you.
    Any storm in your life is just a part of a life.
    So just walk through, pass every problem with Him.
  • RECTORYRECTORY
    iamthecurseofgod wrote:
    Why do I hate so much being Gay?

    1. I couldn't find friends that accept me who I am. (most of gay friends I've met are a sort of maniac and they flirt with me so badly, no true friends).
    Seek and ye shall find.

    2. I must conceal my feelings all the time.
    Not true. If people cannot accept who u really are, then it's THEIR problem.

    3. I always fall in love with straight guys (being gay it means that I'm looking for men figure, not a fake manly figure just like all gay top have or an overly feminine traits just like gay bot have)
    There are zillions of manly gays out there. Seek and ye shall find.

    4. If I want to open up about my gayness, I will ruin my life, for me sex orientation is no need to be declared.
    Ruin your life? Don't be such a drama queen. No need to be declared? you don't have too. It's ur choice to be out or not. But be responsible in your action.

    5. Many women want me, but so sad I couldn't make them special in my heart.
    So? It's their problem not yours.

    6. Life is a lot tougher when you're gay.
    True, but it also makes us stronger and tougher in this life.

    7. I can success in all thing because I'm gay (can combine male and female minds that led to a success) but in love, I'm a desperate person.
    It's your choice to be succesful or not.

    8. Every Religion rejects me.
    Religion is the voice for the olden days. It has lost its relevance today coz life's ( and human being) constantly evolving while religion's not.

    9. I couldn't have my own child, even if i can adopt one, it's a disaster for the kid. They should get raise in a healthy environment.
    Not true. Children raise in 'healthy' i.e 'normal' environment also could get screwed up badly.

    Silahkan olok-olok saya dan silahkan juga mencari pemecahan masalah ini. Saya hanya curhat saja. Terima kasih!!
  • the@mindthe@mind
    iamthecurseofgod wrote:
    the@mind wrote:
    iamthecurseofgod wrote:
    Why do I hate so much being Gay?

    1. I couldn't find friends that accept me who I am. (most of gay friends I've met are a sort of maniac and they flirt with me so badly, no true friends).
    2. I must conceal my feelings all the time.
    3. I always fall in love with straight guys (being gay it means that I'm looking for men figure, not a fake manly figure just like all gay top have or an overly feminine traits just like gay bot have)
    4. If I want to open up about my gayness, I will ruin my life, for me sex orientation is no need to be declared.
    5. Many women want me, but so sad I couldn't make them special in my heart.
    6. Life is a lot tougher when you're gay.
    7. I can success in all thing because I'm gay (can combine male and female minds that led to a success) but in love, I'm a desperate person.
    8. Every Religion rejects me.
    9. I couldn't have my own child, even if i can adopt one, it's a disaster for the kid. They should get raise in a healthy environment.

    Silahkan olok-olok saya dan silahkan juga mencari pemecahan masalah ini. Saya hanya curhat saja. Terima kasih!!

    wah, sudah punya banyak alasan untuk tidak menjadi GAY. Kalo gitu gampang, jangan jadi GAY kalo gitu.

    Yah, tidak semudah membalikkan telapak tangan

    bosss, gw dah lama jadi GAY.

    Pada masa2 awal, sama persis dengan apa yang kamu paparkan. Berbagai usaha untuk menjadi "NORMAL" hasilnya toh sia2.

    Hanya menyiksa diri saja. Akhirnya, ya aku nikmati jalani saja hidup ini. Gak perlu banyak berpikir begini dan begitu.

    Kita gak pernah tau apa yang akan terjadi.

    Yang penting, gak merugikan orang, tetep inget tuhan, sayang sama sesama atau bahkan bisa berbagi dengan sesama. Itu aja.

    Apa sih yang kita cari dalam hidup ini.... Hidup ini sudah complicated, jadi gak perlu ditambah kerumitan-kerumitan lain.

    Masalah agama, aku hanya yakin bahwa, kebenaran yang hakiki, hanya milik Tuhan.
  • RECTORYRECTORY
    Also, keep in mind that your happiness DOES NOT depend on someone else. Only you YOURSELF can make your life happy.
    Choose whether you want to be happy or not. Don't depend on someone else to have a happy life.
  • the@mindthe@mind
    RECTORY wrote:
    Also, keep in mind that your happiness DOES NOT depend on someone else. Only you YOURSELF can make your life happy.
    Choose whether you want to be happy or not. Don't depend on someone else to have a happy life.

    AGREED
  • iamthecurseofgodiamthecurseofgod
    thanx guys, at least i feel better now.
    I'm just feeling this because I do not fit in any categories.
    I'm neither straight nor outed gay person.
    Nobody knows what I feel inside.
    Just like Mulan "Reflection" song, I wish that my reflection will show. I'm too tired to pretend to be someone else. maybe it's too drama queen, but that's I'm feeling rite now.
    Yeah, may be I should try ur all suggestions
  • RECTORYRECTORY
    "iamthecurseofgod&quot wrote:
    thanx guys, at least i feel better now.
    I'm just feeling this because I do not fit in any categories.
    Who says that you 'should' fit in any mold? Each one of us is different. It's probably a cultural thing, but in here we were taught early on to cherish and embrace our own self, quirks and all. You don't have to conform to the massess all the time, y'know.

    I'm neither straight nor outed gay person.
    Just because you are gay DOES NOT mean that you have to be out and shout it out for he whole world to hear! It's your choice to be out or not, but ALWAYS be responsible in whatever you choose.
    Do not use other people to fight your battle ( such as marrying a girl to camouflage the fact that ur a gay guy).
    In short, be free to choose the way you live ur life, but be responsible in your choosing and action!!
    Do not hurt others.Do not used or abuse others.

    Nobody knows what I feel inside.
    Just like Mulan "Reflection" song, I wish that my reflection will show. I'm too tired to pretend to be someone else. maybe it's too drama queen, but that's I'm feeling rite now.
    I think most uf us here know what it feels like. Again, you DON'T have to pretend to be someone else. Just be true to who you are, embrace who uou are, honor yourself, and ALWAYS be responsible in your actions.
  • hinohino
    eh iya juga ya, pilihan ada di tangan kita sendiri. hohoh

    ayo donk besok dah taun baru ;p masa sedih sih ^^

    kemarin gua inget, motong pepaya, pepayanya jatoh, trus bonyok dah hahaha padahal biasa males dipotong, biasa pake sendok aja dikerok gitu ;p hahaha lucu tuh kalo buat gua, pembuktian diri juga sih ^^

    jomblo ya ? Kalo jawabannya karena lum ada partner sih, hmm dari thread2 lama katanya jangan pernah sendiri, solusinya yang hang out ama temen2 ato sibukkan diri sendiri, tapi gak jamin sih dalam keramaian kita tidak akan lepas dari rasa sepi itu ^^ ya itu faktor lingkungan aja, jadi mungkin lebih penting ama internal state aja, diri kita sendiri ^^
  • NocturnalNocturnal
    You just hate being yourself..

    The key is you brow.anything that make sadness or happiness mostly from us..

    So let's fill this short life with positive n happiness matter, proud 2 be urself, no matter what all the dumbass say brow..
  • GamalielGamaliel
    Banyak orang ingin bahagia dengan cara mengejar kebahagiaan dan membuang segala kesedihan... yang didapatnya adalah hilangnya kebahagiaan dan diperoleh makin banyak kesedihan...

    Yang membagikan kebahagiaan dan mau bersedih untuk orang lain, ternyata yang didapatnya adalah justru berkurangnya kesedihan dan makin melimpahnya kebahagaiaan!


    Berpikir tentang diri sendiri melulu, membuat kebahagiaan berlalu
    Berjuang menjadi berguna bagi banyak orang, membuat kebahagiaan rajin datang
  • KoylaKoyla
    cobalah untuk mencintai dirimu sendiri lalu mencintai org lain (it's obviously simple but it's not easy as it looks). The point is There's nothing wrong being gay (I reckon). Screw 'em ! screw them for those who disciminate u. that's not their bussiness and u have to learn to ignore people's reaction, if u still concern about people's reaction, u just kill your self smoothly.

    Ga usah diambil pusing, ignore, try to ignore, cobalah unutk menjadi cuek, persetan deh am omongan mereka. (mereka jg blm tentu sempurna). gw tipe org yg tdk percaya dgn miracle/jujur, gw atheis. Daripada pusing2 mikir agama, knp kt ga buat sesuatu yang berguna setidaknya bwt kita sndr?
    semua org jg baik gay, straight whatever they are, mereka jg sama , mrk struggle about love (gw jg struggle). Enstein aj ampe bilang " Lbh sulit memecahkan cinta drpd memecahkan atom".

    Klo km terlalu memikirkan apa kata org, pada akhirnya km cuma nyiksa diri sndr, km tersiksa bkn krn mereka tp karan perasaan yg dibuat oleh km sndr. cobalah cuek, IGNORE THINGS THAT'S SEEMS NOT IMPORTANT FOR U. MEREKA SIAPA BERHAK NGE JUDGE KM? THEY ARE NOTHING. Even presiden aj bnyk dkritik ini itu, SANGAT MANUSIAWILAH MANUSIA ADA KEKURANGAN, ITU SANGAT MANUSIAWI. COBALAH IGNORE AND BERDAMAI DGN DIRI SNDR. AWALNYA AK SAMA KAYA KM TP STLH KUCOBA IGNORE AND BERDAMAI DGN KEADAANKU INI. TTHINGS ARE GETTING BETTER AND BETTER.
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