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  • Kaka mario cakep ga?
    Krn beda jawaban beda perlakuan
    Nnt saya kasih tips deh kayak mana main "amannya"

    Tts kasi tauk juga, fantasi yg kayak mana yg diinginkan.

    :blush:

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  • Yup. Life is more of a sequential than its a discrete. You cant shake things off of your past. Better be forever curious than forever regretful.
  • Hmm you just need real life Gay friend I think.

    And 22 years old is still young... *gak terima
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  • It’s loneliness.

    Even though I’m surrounded by loved ones who care about me and want only the best, it’s possible they try to help only because they feel the same thing—loneliness— and why, in a gesture of solidarity, you’ll find the phrase “I am useful, even if alone” carved in stone. Though the brain says all is well, the soul is lost, confused, doesn’t know why life is being unfair to it. But we still wake up in the morning and take care of our children, our husband, our lover, our boss, our employees, our students, those dozens of people who make an ordinary day come to life. And we often have a smile on our face and a word of encouragement,
    because no one can explain their loneliness to others, especially when we are always in good company.

    But this loneliness exists and eats away at the best parts of us because we must use all our energy to appear happy, even though we will never be able to deceive ourselves. But we insist, every morning, on showing only the rose that blooms, and keep the thorny stem that hurts us and makes us bleed hidden within.
    Even knowing that everyone, at some point, has felt completely and utterly alone, it is humiliating to say, “I’m lonely, I need company. I need to kill this monster that everyone thinks is as imaginary as a fairy-tale dragon, but isn’t.” But it isn’t. I wait for a pure and virtuous knight, in all his glory, to come defeat it and push it into the abyss for good, but that knight never comes. Yet we cannot lose hope.

    We start doing things we don’t usually do, daring to go beyond what is fair and necessary. The thorns inside us will grow larger and more overwhelming, yet we cannot give up halfway. Everyone is looking to see the final outcome, as though life were a huge game of chess. We pretend it doesn’t matter whether we
    win or lose, the important thing is to compete. We root for our true feelings to stay opaque and hidden, but then …
    … instead of looking for companionship, we isolate ourselves even more in order to lick our wounds in silence. Or we go
    out for dinner or lunch with people who have nothing to do with our lives and spend the whole time talking about things that are of no importance. We even manage to distract ourselves for a
    while with drink and celebration, but the dragon lives on until the people who are close to us see that something is wrong and begin to blame themselves for not making us happy. They ask what the problem is. We say that everything is fine, but it’s not … Everything is awful.

    Please, leave me alone, because I have no more tears to cry or heart left to suffer. All I have is insomnia, emptiness, and apathy, and, if you just ask yourselves, you’re feeling the same thing. But they insist that this is just a rough patch or depression because they are afraid to use the real and damning word: loneliness.

    Meanwhile, we continue to relentlessly pursue the only thing that would make us happy: the knight in shining armor who will slay the dragon, pick the rose, and clip the thorns. Many claim that life is unfair. Others are happy because they believe that this is exactly what we deserve: loneliness, unhappiness. Because
    we have everything and they don’t. But one day those who are blind begin to see. Those who are sad are comforted. Those who suffer are saved. The knight arrives to rescue us, and life is vindicated once again.

    Still, you have to lie and cheat, because this time the circumstances are different. Who hasn’t felt the urge to drop everything and go in search of their dream? A dream is always risky, for there is a price to pay. That price is death by stoning in some countries, and in others it could be social ostracism or indifference. But there is always a price to pay. (from Adultery -Paulo Colhoe; I somewhat feel that way)
  • coba ikut gath gih..
    TS stay dmn?
  • Mending agamanya dipertebal kak,
    Moga aja bisa jadi straight kayak akuh~ :>
  • ribet banget ya hidup lu

    chouo itu harus punya prinsip

    terserah lu mau milih berpetualang dulu atau merit

    yang penting konsisten jeung

    kalau msh terombang ambing ga jelas mending ngondek ngondek syanteeekkk dulu jeung

    key
  • Wow, thanks for deeming me humble :D

    gay is you. The curiosity is something that lives within. I just warn you that, you try same sex experience (or romance) will affect your whole life, it can't be same like before. On the other hand, you don't have any same sex experience and get married. You will not cease to fulfill your curiosity about man. If you're lucky maybe it's just curiosity. But what if more than curiosity? You've a wife, you have son. You will bet your commitment your life. As I said, you're still gay even if you're married. N your curiosity is still alive

    *buka kamus*
  • halah masih umur 22 juga, entar kalo nemu cowo yg cocok juga palingan deadline buat married diundur sampe umur 30an -.-
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