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btw gw juga ampe nyari foto lee min ho ...hahahaha baru engeh gw kalo dia itu yg namanya lee min ho...hehe
@end and @Ambigu: Thanks. if you like the plot of the stories, I'm hoping it'll get better.
@iamyogi96: chapter 8 is coming in 10 mins.
@Ambigu Lee Min Ho? I prefer Kim Bum and his bums though =P
“Mate, I’m going to Paris office for a couple of days, something came up. Miss you and I’ll talk to you later. cc”
I read the text again and again. It was the last text that I’ve got from Chris yesterday. I didn’t know how to respond to that, so I my reply was short and simple.
“Have a safe journey, and I look forward to see you soon. John”
“Still no news from Chris?” Danny asked as he came back from the toilet. It’s Friday morning, and Danny decided to come and join me for breakfast in the hotel before taking me for a bit of sightseeing.
“Nope, I guess it must be serious, some sort of emergency meeting, otherwise they wouldn’t ask him to spend the weekend there.” I said plainly after sipping from my first cup of coffee for today.
“It looks like they’re going to him busy there for awhile." I tried to hide the fact that I was a bit sad.
Danny looked at me closely.
“Chris and you, you guys are pretty close huh?” He asked carefully, as if he was afraid that he might step into a sensitive area.
I was playing back my memories of how he looked when we went for different trips together. Being his personal assistant, I was lucky enough to go along with him to different meetings in different places. My favourite was when we had to go to Rome for a conference and then we decided to stay over the weekend and had a bit of a holiday together for just the two of us. It was fun.
I smiled.
"I'm sorry." I quickly said to Danny, realising I got carried away.
"I was just hm..." I couldn't find any excuses to cover that up.
"No worries." He said plainly, but his eyes were searching in mine for something more.
I looked at him. I knew I wouldn’t be able to get away without answering his question properly. And I guessed I didn’t want to lie to him. In a lot of ways, I felt he was the right guy to share my thoughts and concerns about this.
"Yeah, I guess you could say that."
"I see." He said softly while still trying to read my mind.
"Well, we are close, but..." I wasn't sure if I should finish my sentence.
"But what?" He asked.
"We are close, but lately, I'm not so sure if it was a good idea." I decided to be more honest with him.
"What do you mean?" He asked genuinely.
I took a moment before I said more.
"Well, I don't know if it was the jetlag that started it, and the fact that I missed home and that I missed his company, but lately... I've been having these... strange thoughts.." I stopped while trying to double check if he would be ok with where I was going with the conversation.
"It's just that lately, somehow, I started to...develop, stronger feelings toward him."
"It's stupid, and..." I quickly tried to trivialise it.
"Hey, look at me." He said seriously with his hand on mine.
"It's not stupid, and it's definitely not something that you should be embarrassed of." He said sternly.
"I hate the fact that people here still think that gay people are either mentally sick or that they are just some sort of perverts. And I certainly don't want you to think that I am one of them."
I looked at him and I felt touch by his concerns.
"I know you're not. And I am not ashamed of it if it was true, if I were gay."
"Trust me. I live in London. That city would die if we didn't have the gays and the lesbians."
"My problem is that I'm confused. I just never thought that I could be gay or bisexual. Surely I should have known earlier if I was. I like women. In fact, I never had sex other than with women. And I'm not attracted to guys, at least not all guys. I admired some, but that's it. I......I just..."
I took a moment to find ways to explain it better.
Not for Danny, but more for myself.
I took a deep breath as I looked beyond the glass windows of the restaurant.
"Chris is a special person for me. He's a great guy, a great boss, and a great friend. I don't know if this sudden feelings that I have for him is even real. I mean I feel drawn to him, and lately even more than ever, but does it mean that I'm in love with him? Does that mean that I‘m gay?"
"No, of course not!" He replied quickly.
"Just because you're attracted to him doesn't mean that you're gay or even bi. And since when we have to fit everything into a specific box or label that the society creates. Forget about it. Forget about them. That's not important."
Wow...
I was amazed of how strong he felt about it, and even more amazed of how wise and open minded he was.
"What's important is the feelings that you have for him. That's what makes you confused, right?"
He looked at me and realised that he didn't need to hear the answer.
"Look, maybe you've just got it all wrong. Maybe you just need to come from a different angle."
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Well, you said that you're close to him. You spent so much time with him, at work at outside work. Maybe it's just a withdrawal syndrome from somebody that you are used to have around all the time." He explained.
"Look, obviously he is a special person for you. Maybe he is one of the pillars that hold your world. He colours your life and he is a big part of your life. But that's it. You're just in the situation of not having that in your life at the moment."
I stared at my cup of coffee and began to let what he said sink in.
"So you're a little confused with your feelings towards him, big deal! It's nothing, it doesn't change anything. You may need to keep an open mind from now on about your sexual orientation, but you're still you."
Funny how now he was the one who comforted me.
"Thank you." I felt slightly relieved.
"Hey, you should be thankful. You're young, single, and you're experiencing new world, literally and figuratively! Go explore them, and enjoy the ride!" He finished with a big smile.
I couldn't help but to smile too. My confusion and fear seemed to disappear because of his words. It was true.
Jakarta is a practically new world for me, and so was this.
This admiration for men, well for Chris really, this was also a new world.
Maybe instead of being afraid about it and trying to get away from it, I should explore it.
I smiled.
Well, what do you know?!
This trip is bringing two new worlds for me.
Now, it's not just about Jakarta.
Now it's more than that.
sejak danny di citrakan sbg lee min ho saya jadi bosan ama karakter dia, hahhahahha....
Benernya waktu gue baca ulang, nyesel nih tulis gimana s Danny keliatan rada cengeng. Kayanya persepsi gue tentang cowok itu sempit banget.
Plus I'm not a big fan of crying man :-). Anyway, let's see how it goes.
PS. heads up, bakal ada a bit of sex scene, maybe in chapter 10. I apologise in advance, not only I'm rubbish in writing it, but I originally intended to keep it clean. But I think it's important for the story line.
Chapter 9 is on it's way now..
dapet banyak hal baru di part ini ....
lanjut om... d^^
iya gw juga prefer nya ke kimbum ....hihihihi
hmm ini seru nih....kita bisa dapet data bagaimana seorang str8, membandingkan str8 sex dengan gay sex ....
kayaknya bakalan banyak kata2 "aku tidak menyangka..." ? hahaha
hahahha gak juga, sy bayangin si danny sbg fachri albar, begitu dibilang mirip lee min ho lgsg blarrr.... gak cocok hahhahhaha 8-X
utk bagian nervous ato pun nangis tetep aja fachri albar sexy, hahahhaa
btw tulisan om bagus bgt kok, sesuatu bgt,
@gray_side: oh gitu. kalo ada comment ato input untuk bikin lebih baik, kasih tau yah, kan temanya belajar nulis nih...
Chapter 9 will be ready in 10 mins
btw trivia google juga si siwon cuakep dah, hahahhaha
saya juga belum nemu gambaran tentang john, gak ada deskripsinya
yaaa kan mungkin aja ada darah chinesse or apalah yg oriental2 gitu...???hehe namanya juga indo....
orang indo aja ada yg mirip obama...wkwkwkwk
It was Friday night. After driving around and visiting a couple of places in Jakarta, we decided to have a quick dinner somewhere in town. I suggested to Danny to just drop me in the hotel so that I wouldn’t take more of his time, but he insisted that I should also take the opportunity to see the night life in Jakarta.
So I took a quick shower and changed into something more appropriate while he was on my bed watching the sport channel. That was another thing that I learnt about him, he was a massive football fan, and he supported Manchester United.
Aahh, if only he knew how the londoners hate MU. I wasn’t a big fan of football, but even I knew that.
Anyway, I think there was a game on, and I literally had to drag him out of the bed and into the shower. I was tidying up the papers on the desk and in my bag when he came out of the bathroom.
I was stunned. He looked different. Actually he looked amazing. He was wearing this purple body-fit light jacket that highlighted his perfectly toned slender body. The low cut thin t-shirt underneath the jacket showed his amazing pecs that you’d get only if you’ve done your share of the bench press in a gym. He had done something with his hair too that made his face looked brighter and fresher. With the sleek skin-tight jeans and a pair of burgundy canvas shoes, made him looked taller. I’m not a big fan of skin tight jeans for guys, but it definitely worked on him. And the most amazing thing of all, it all came together as a simple yet elegant ensemble, like he was too cool to care but you’d still wonder where he had just popped out of a magazine.
I couldn't take my eyes from him for awhile. I guessed that it was the first time I noticed him with something else than his working attires.
I suddenly realised that I was making him feel uncomfortable with me staring at him.
“Did you just do some work again?” He quickly asked pretending that he was annoyed.
Wait, is he blushing?
"No, I was just tidying things up" I said trying to stop myself from commenting about his look.
“You look amazing by the way.” Obviously I failed, but at least I didn’t sound like a teenage girl.
“Thanks. I wish I can be more like you though, you always look classy and cool at the same time.” He said while grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge.
"So I thought maybe we could go out for a drink or something, maybe in a cafe or a bar?"
"A drink sounds great. I could kill for a pint of stella artois if you asked me. But are you sure you're ok with this? I don't want you to feel obligated to take care of me. You guys are just way too polite and hospitable sometimes."
"No, of course not. I'd love to show you a bit of the night live in Jakarta, and I think it‘ll be fun" He said enthusiastically. His face lid up. I loved it.
Ten minutes later we were in his car and he was showing me around the area. I was shocked to see the heavy traffic in the late hours of the night, but he said that was typical Jakarta in the weekend. We finally arrived at the Hard Rock Cafe.
I thought I had died and went to heaven when I took the first sip of my pint of Stella Artois. It didn't taste exactly the same like the one that I used to have, but it was close enough.
We stayed there for an hour or so enjoying the music. I had a couple more pints while Danny was sticking with soda. He said he wanted to make sure that we wouldn't end up in a hospital on the way back since he was the designated driver.
I had a great time there. We enjoyed the music, and laughed. I wasn't sure whether it was the alcohol or whether it was the weekend, I felt so relax around him and I could wind down and have a bit of fun.
"This is fun" I said loudly tried to beat the loud music.
They were playing the song I want to take you to a gay bar by electric six.
Touche. I smiled.
"I'm glad you're enjoying this too." He said with a smile.
We stayed there for a little while and I had a couple more beer too, slightly too much for one night. When he saw me starting to get a bit tipsy, he grabbed my hand and said it's time to go home.
Gue setuju tentang penggunaan b.inggris kalo memang itu lebih nyaman buat lu.