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Surat buat mantan TTM gw

(guys, ini tulisan gw buat mantan ttm yg menghilang sekian lama dan tau2 besok mw merit. krn gw g bs kirim buat dia, gw post aja dsini. bisa dibilang ni curhatan aja coz bikin keqi kl cm dpendam dalam hati :)). silakan komen kl ada yg tertarik.tks)


Dear J
wherever you are

Sorry to say that i no longer get any conversation with you. For i still bear my disappointment, more likely when you have done resign and choose your own way. Now i remember you. Why did you dissapear so i couldn’t find you anywhere?

Now i wanna share something
I have my life now. With someone that i choose to live and love. But actually i longing to have you. It's have been 12 years. So why i couldn’t forget the way you are. Still... i knew you are the past. But in fact, i cant get you out of my head.

When i hear the last news about you, my heart broke, torn apart. But i had to let you go. Now that you have your own life; please be happy with everything you choose to love and live. Be the best person as best as you can do. You know, i love you so. So love you that i punished myself entirely for more than a decade!!! Silly indeed, but this is true.

My last message for you;
Pardon me for being love you, for our past that wasn’t going well. I say thanks for our past, for the memory i have with you, everything we share together, and please take care your love and never let it go whatever will happened to your live, promise me to stay in the way you choose at now. Love and live your life, for your happiness is my guilty cures so that i can let you go, release you far away from my heart and my life forever...

your love
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Comments

  • sooo sad..

    It's have been 12 years n you still love him so much.?
    Wooow..
  • edited April 2013
    @Domin21L there's nothing wrong with loving someone. But don't expecting someone to always love you back.

    Even if he is not with you / far away with you right now, it's not a sin to love him. I think he'll be happy if he know that he wish you his happiness.

    Take his wedding as an opportunity for a closure.

    I think you need send him a gift, and a greetings card that let him know it is from you. Tell him in the card how happy you are seeing him marrying someone that he loves, and wish him for the best in the future. And tell him to forgive anything wrong that was happening in the past. It will be a good closure for long love overdue, and also a way to tell him that you are okay with him now.

    Just my 2 cent :)
  • thanks all 4 your comments
    @sayangqQ: yeah, he is my 1st crush. really crush into my heart so deeply (i knew it's crazy, even i was wonder it's have been 12 years apart!)
    @pendatangbaru; i cant send him anything for i dunno where he lives now. i get the news from another friend who got the gossip that he will celebrate the wedding in my town. but its cancelled. Celebration was held in capitol city. and he didn't invite me :((

    but as you read my letter; that I am okay now. :)
    hope it will be a good memories to remember
  • boso londho,,, lieur ahh bacanya

    ikhlasin aja, semoga lo dapet yang baru gan yang bukan sekadar TTM :D
  • Domin21L wrote: »
    thanks all 4 your comments
    @sayangqQ: yeah, he is my 1st crush. really crush into my heart so deeply (i knew it's crazy, even i was wonder it's have been 12 years apart!)
    @pendatangbaru; i cant send him anything for i dunno where he lives now. i get the news from another friend who got the gossip that he will celebrate the wedding in my town. but its cancelled. Celebration was held in capitol city. and he didn't invite me :((

    but as you read my letter; that I am okay now. :)
    hope it will be a good memories to remember

    In this IT era, I don't think it would be that hard to get his information.

    You could start with asking a friends of yours both in the past.
    I'm sure you can :)
  • what? 12 years? Cmon. Don’t keep wasting time on someone who doesn’t care about you the way you do for them. Don’t keep wasting your time on someone who only uses you when need something.
    or want something. :/
    But find some1 who wont make u feel like you're only being used when he need someone :)
    be strong broo :)
  • @Domin21L bener apa kata @LittleBro ni, CARI COWOK BARU...
    Cari cowok yg bisa buat sandarin kepala ketika capex dan beri pelukan hangat ketika km down..
  • Mantanmu mau merit sama tante @claudy
  • Yang sabar bro
  • merinding T_T
  • @all
    thanks for all your comments.
    @dhe2dhe2@LittleBro@sayangQ : kebetulan kmrn pas mulai ngetik dengan awalan "Dear" jadi keterusan ajah :D but thanks anyway, sperti yg ud kutulis, uda ikhlas kok, n emang udah lama dpt yg baru hehehe..
    @pendatangbaru : i dont wanna ruin his new life. i just wanna release him free. its enough for me :)
  • @domin21L good lah kalo gituh
  • aq ora mudeng artine
  • UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE Surat buat mantan TTM gw
    bagai disambar petir suddenly i got his wedding invitation!!!!!
    OMG! :-O ternyata beneran mau dirayain di kota ini?!?!

    guys, pls kasi saran, gw masi pengen liat wajahnya lagi, but gw g mw jadi =(( galau gara2 dateng liat dia bersanding dg orang lain coz deep down inside my heart masih tersimpan kenangan bersamanya. ini bukan alay, tp emang beneran feeling gw kaya gtu.

    so, what should i do? :-S datang gak ya? :-/
  • katamu bukan alay? wong jelas2 alay gt kok
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